ಅಪ್ಪ ಇಲ್ಲದ ಗಣಪತಿ ಹಬ್ಬ
ಅಪ್ಪ ಇಲ್ಲದ ಗಣಪತಿ ಹಬ್ಬ, ಬೋಳು ಆಲದ ಮರದಂತೆ.
ಶುಭ್ರ ಮಗುಟ ಧರಿಸಿ ಶ್ರದ್ಧೆಯಿಂದ ಅವರು ಪೂಜಿಸುತ್ತಿದ್ದ ರೀತಿ, ಮಂತ್ರಘೋಷದ ಏರಿಳಿತಗಳಲ್ಲಿದ್ದ ಭಕ್ತಿ ರಸ…ಇನ್ನು ಬರಿ ನೆನಪಷ್ಟೆ.
ನನ್ನ ಮಟ್ಟಿಗೆ ಹೇಳುವುದಾದರೆ, ಹಬ್ಬದ ಹಿಂದಿನ ರಾತ್ರಿ ಸೂರನ್ನೆ ದಿಟ್ಟಿಸುತ್ತಾ ನಿದ್ರಿಸಲು ಪ್ರಯತ್ನಿಸಿದೆ. ಅಪ್ಪನ ನೆನಪು ತುಂಬ ಕಾಡುತ್ತಿತ್ತು. ಅತ್ತುಬಿಡಬೇಕು ಎಂದುಕೊಂಡೆ. ಅಳು ಬರಲೇ ಇಲ್ಲ, ಆದರೆ ದುಃಖ ಉಮ್ಮಳಿಸುತ್ತಿತ್ತು.
ಹಬ್ಬವೇ ಇಲ್ಲದ ಹಬ್ಬದ ದಿನ, ಮನಸ್ಸು ಮುದುಡಿ ಗೂಡು ಹೊಕ್ಕಿತ್ತು.
ಅಪ್ಪ ಇಲ್ಲದ ಗಣಪತಿ ಹಬ್ಬ, ಹಾರಲು ಮರೆತ ಹಕ್ಕಿಯಂತೆ.
September 17, 2007 at 7:57 pm
ಅಪ್ಪನ ನೆನಪು ತುಂಬ ಕಾಡುತ್ತಿತ್ತು. ಅತ್ತುಬಿಡಬೇಕು ಎಂದುಕೊಂಡೆ. ಅಳು ಬರಲೇ ಇಲ್ಲ, ಆದರೆ ದುಃಖ ಉಮ್ಮಳಿಸುತ್ತಿತ್ತು.
–> ee sannivesha naanu saha bahaLa dina edurisuttene, bari habbada dinagaLalli ashTe alla.. estondu santasa khsaNagaLalli… yaake andre ene ondu hosa/oLLeya samachaara iddre adanna manspoorthi hanchi kolluttiddaddu avarondige, haageye avaru kooDa ashTe santasadinda harshodgaara vyaktapadisuttidru!
September 18, 2007 at 11:04 am
ನಿಮ್ಮ ಮನಸ್ಸಿಗೆ ನೆಮ್ಮದಿ ಸಿಕ್ಕಲೆಂದು ಮಾತ್ರ ಕೇಳಿಕೊಳ್ಳಬಲ್ಲೆ. ನೆನಪುಗಳು ಮಾಸುವುದು ಸುಲಭದ ಮಾತಲ್ಲ.
ಕಳೆದುಕೊಂಡವರು ಮಾತ್ರ ಕಳೆದುಕೊಂಡವರ ಮನಸ್ಸನ್ನು ಅರಿಯಬಲ್ಲರು.
-ನೀಲಾಂಜನ
September 18, 2007 at 5:23 pm
@ Veena:
I agree, exact same feelings here. Whenever I had success in anything, Appa would be so much more happier than I would be.
@ neelanjana:
Thank you. As they say, time is the healer.
September 18, 2007 at 10:15 pm
Time heals?
In my case at times I feel the intensity is fading..the pain suddenly resurfaces ans stabs..
September 18, 2007 at 10:56 pm
@ neel3:
I have been told that time is the healer. I haven’t really experienced it yet, it’s too soon for me.
September 19, 2007 at 2:22 am
May God give you strength to overcome this hour of grief.
I don’t think we can ever learn to live without our lost loved ones. We just learn to accept that they are not amongst us.
September 19, 2007 at 11:51 am
DS: Thanks for sharing your grief. I don’t know how much the following will help….
Whether true or not, our Hindu beliefs and Buddhist Jaathaka tales are beautiful as well as comforting and very meaningful too.
My maternal granduncle Narayan was a brilliant chemical engineer who retired as the deputy director of IIT-Mumbai and many companies.
He died peacefully in sleep in Brno at his brother-in-law’s place. The same year a son was born to me – his brother’s daughter’s son.
I don’t know why but I had felt like naming my son after my granduncle but didn’t.
My elders now say that Jr. has the same brilliance and different way of looking at things as his great grand uncle. Unlikely that Jr’s brilliance was due to the inherited genes because Narayan was childless.
I recall an earlier response by you in these pages that you are not yet a father.
I wonder if your bereavement, sad as it is, has some significance …….
I am reminded of SLB’s Naayi Neralu. I am told the movie is also very good.
September 20, 2007 at 11:14 pm
Oooops Annon has a story!
September 20, 2007 at 11:49 pm
appanannu kaledukondavirige gottu avara mahatva
nanage saha hege agutttu ondondu sala
karana ganapathi habbakke 4 dina munchene 99ralli
nammannu bittu horataru nanna preetiya tande
nanage avaru friend philosopher guide
avara vyktitvadalli swalpavadu nanu padedidre nanu dhanya
appa igo ninage nnanna ashru tarpana
hage yellara kaleduhoda tande tayndrigi nammellara namana
devaru yellarigu shkti kodali jeevana madalikke
appa amma illavadaga kala chakra urltairutte
badukujatakabandi vidhi adara saheba alva
September 25, 2007 at 2:21 pm
@ shark:
You are right. I am not sure when we will really accept such things though.
@ Aram and Srik:
Thanks.
@ praneshachar:
enE anni, kagga bhagavadgIteya samAna. dhanyavAdagaLu.